24 Dec 2016_1

Tradition dictates that the day after Christmas eve is Christmas. I’m not sure that I celebrate Christmas every year, but I end up giving some presents even if I don’t believe in Santaclause.

This year, I have a bike race on Boxing day. I will have much less drink in me than previous years. To be honest, it doesn’t take much for me to red in the face. And a day dedicated to drink can easily see a few more glasses of wine downed than on any other day. No harm is done, because all the alcohol is with food. It’s fine, promise!

I will find a way to get through the day will as little wine as possible. This may involve lots of fresh air, and a little fretting about the small gifts I decided to give this year!

It doesn’t even feel like Christmas eve. It’s too warm outside, no snow and 2016 has been a terrible year for bad things around the world. Things move along so quickly, and things are forgotten so quickly if you weren’t involved. Luckily, with it being the end of the year television will remind us just how bad this year has been. But mostly, the lack of at least the promise of snow is doing it for me.

Christmas day gives me nine more days before work starts again! Must relax, and breathe.

I didn’t ask for anything this year. What I have is enough, and I seem to have upgraded enough things this year. And the main problem with new things is that they either need extra new things, or they raise your expectations. Ideally, I’d have a new everything. Just getting a new gadget feels like sticking a little plaster on a broken leg.

That’s not entirely correct. I have great music and sound at home, I have computers, and I have a car. There’s just the fear that I might lose it all. And I can’t be the only one with these fears. I’m not. Reactions may differ, and I wish there was more openess about this. Coping mechanisms are in play. Mine is trying to stay healthy, and look like someone people want on their team. That, and just ignoring the situation. I’m happy for those who want to climb the coporate ladder to do it. We can’t all get there. All I want is enough to be able to do the things I want to do. Sometimes that is nothing. But I always end up doing things. I’m pacing my way through life, and try not to be too materialistic.

Perhaps in my own half-assed way I’ve re-discovered the really meaning of Christmas.

Two minutes to Christmas!!!!!!!!!!!