25 Dec 2016

It’s Christmas Day and there are fifteen minutes until annual Christmas episode of Doctor Who is on. In some ways it’s a salvation. But right now, I’m taking too much of a risk writing. There are other people in the room. This will need to continued later. But I am going to see it. More about the importance of this later.

I never got to watch it in peace. It’s not that important, and I can watch it again. I’ve seen better, but that’s not the point. It’s the hour on Christmas day that I want, but it seems to be too much. Just a quiet sit down with no distractions. This place isn’t the place to explain why.

Something else that didn’t happen is not drinking today. Well, not drinking by Christmas Day standards. There was a quick pint of bitter in a local noisy pub, a glass of prosecco, and a glass of high quality red wine I didn’t like.

Looking back, drinking would have been a better idea, but I gave myself a reason not to. And that’s a bike race I’m not really fit for. With a bit of luck, I’ll be racing lots of people with hangovers. Given my current fitness I am going to need others in a much worse state than me. It may be fun in a painful kind of way, and it is a great reason to get out of the house on Boxing Day. It’s a day when walks happen, so the family can go for a walk where I’m doing something.

It’s not attention that I’m looking for. It’s just that we can try and do something together. After all, if they were doing something I’d go and watch. I’ve been on their walks, and I’m not really asking for much. But I’d be happy to go and do it myself. Perhaps, a little guilt might kick in -like before. But hey, commitments. Can’t do it.

So just once, have your drive, somewhere else not far away, or walk a route you don’t normally walk. You might even learn something, or have a good time in the fresh air you were going to breathe.

My only fears are that I’ll do much worse than I can. And the bigger fear – not hearing about anything else for days and days.

I’ve come all the way here again, and I’m not asking much except a little change of a normal plan.

This can be my Doctor Who moment.