31 Dec 2016_1

I’m home on my own again! And I’m a lot less bothered than every before. I’ve just reminded myself that I don’t have to stay up until midnight. No magic happens, and waiting an extra second this year will go unnoticed to. So my plan is to have a small drink of a liqueur, keep listening to good music, and go to bed as normal.

Fireworks will wake me up if I’m asleep. Many will be set off early, and many will keep banging in to the early hours. This is a problem, and it will not help with the awful fog we’ve had for the past few days.

Christmas was the warmest recorded, and snow seems to be a thing of the past in winter. The weather feels wrong, and the days seem short. In need summer! The restart to the year is all wrong in my head. But restart it must. Next year I promise to take a longer holiday in the summer. I won’t though, there’s no one to plan one with.

I should get out more. The problem is all I do is exercise related, and I can’t be bothered anymore. I haven’t given up. I just want to throw the stopwatch away and get out for the sake of it. On balance, exercise seems to have done me some good, but there have been some knocks on the way. I’m sure I’m starting to feel every bang on the head I’ve ever had. And I have a feeling that this affects my moods, although much less now I have an idea about what is happening. All the same, this is going to impact on any New Years resolutions I could set myself. The best I can do is keep pushing on.

One way or another, things will change next year. I’ll try and be ready.