Today was a perfect blue skied autumn day. I almost wasted it by not going out and doing stuff, but at the same time not going outside again. Part of this is that I have very little available funds until Hilton and my bank communicate and let me have access to much remaining overdraft. Spending £3.50 for a coffee can’t be justified when I don’t know when I’ll have some available cash. I’ll probably had two coffees and then my emergency petrol money would be gone. The spend is fine when what you’re really paying for is somewhere to sit and relax, or type away. But I already have somewhere to sit and type with good coffee without leaving home.

I’m reading Jordan Peterson’s 12 Rules For Life and instead of reading on, I decided to put the running shoes on and run further than I’ve ran in months. I ran 10k and the last time I ran that far was in May, the time before that would have been 31st December 2017. When I say ran, I jogged. The reason was to make sure I could go as long as I wanted, and the other was to make sure my legs aren’t in pieces for the next week.

Reading on was tempting. After all, I’ve been reading a lot recently. However, knowledge is pointless if you do nothing with it. A kick up the backside is no use either if it’s aimed wrong or at the right time. This kick was perfectly timed. So what happened? In short, the message was look after yourself as if your looking after someone else. If you were observing  and advising them what would you have them do? I’m my case, get out go for a jog, and listen to your advice to jog slowly. So I did! And I’m very happy with my 60 minute 10k. I know I could have and will go faster, but this is just training and near the end I was feeling a bit weird. Floaters were hovering in my right eye, and I must have been short of sugar. There was no harm done and I walked home safely for a few minutes after my hour was up.

A few hours later, I switched off the small lights in the small room and gave the meditation a try again. The sitting there and not letting thoughts in my head will take time, but it’s worth doing if only to make my neck feel better. The big thing though was taking long breaths, holding for a second and letting it out. Chi doesn’t exist, but I can understand what people think it is. The feeling of energy is a big buzz, and I scared myself, just a little. At one point I’m sure I felt I was going to fly. I want more!

An important this as well is that I’m doing this with out any distractions. That’s no radio, or TV. It could be that I’m on to something.