My press-ups last year served a purpose when I was doing them. It was a distraction, it was difficult, it caused some injuries which made me stronger, I sailed passed my 100 press-up target, it was only ten minutes of my day, and finally the results were visible. So why did I stop? I have no reason not to start doing them again and that’s why I need to start again. Thinking about it, this is not just about press-ups. It’s about all of the things that may be a little uncomfortable, that are possible, that will bring results, that I need to be doing.

I didn’t realise that press-ups was my blocker. And I’m going to have to do them before I move on. A little pain won’t be a problem, time isn’t an issue, and I’m putting it off by writing this. What I don’t want to know is how far my ability has dropped, but thinking about it, I might still be quite good. And yet, I’m putting it off and I’ve put a barrier in the way. That’s that barrier in front of all the other barriers in the way. But you can jump over a barrier, knock it down, or climb over it if you need to. Sometimes, you can just walk around them.

Not writing here is a bit of a shame, and the reason I haven’t been doing them are the same reasons I haven’t been writing. All the reasons I have used not to, are all the reasons that I should be or that I can. They feel trivial and point less given the big picture. But they are skills that are useful. It’s exercise for the mind and body, and exercise is a good thing.

I’m scared of feedback.

Feedback is a great thing and I must have written about it before. At the moment I’m avoiding it by being comfortable and I can’t afford to be comfortable. I need some pain, and I’m the only person that can dish that out to myself right now. And from that pain, I need some rewards.

Step 1: Do my press-ups, and do them now. The short sharp exercise will get my system started. I’ll have taken a step, then I can take another step. It’s 10:19, but tomorrow it will be 0630.

Step 2: One step at a time. Let’s see where the habit of press-ups gets me.

Completely by accident, I’ll have completed two things by 10:30. I’ve started writing again!