The thing about anxiety is that it is always there. You might think it’s not, but it is definitely running in the background and restricting your choices. Then just when you have to do something that needs doing, it reappears. With a little practice, you can bluff your way through and make people think otherwise. But you know it’s there. It keeps you in your comfort zone where you can’t be challenged. People who know will know. And more to the point, you know. So what am I (err, I mean you) going to do about it?

I can’t just write that last paragraph and walk away. I could start a whole threat about the very high level of pollution that my Flow is reporting in this coffee shop, but that is just a deflection tactic. But seriously, this air is not good at all. Instead, I’m getting ready for an interview workshop.

Not leaving the house would have been the easier thing to do. After all, I don’t have any job interviews in my diary at the moment. What I do know is that I need to have some interviews. The practice might hurt, but I can’t miss the chance.

Should I tell them about the air quality? No. Not today.

I’ll be fine. I’m going to a safe environment where I can deal with some fears. And I must go, before I’m late. The clean air will be good too!

Complete a blog in one day for fucks sake. Or is that for fuck’s sake!?

I was fine and the air was good. And this is another one of those blogs that gets knocked on the head. It’s better if I try and move on to the next one.