There you go. Something really unoriginal to start with. But it is, and I’m drinking a mango and something iced tea out of a jug, with a straw. I’ve sat here before. It’s a really nice day, and I’m well, I’m being me. Nothing much has changed. As it is the summer I’m forcing myself to travel. If I don’t I’ll kick myself asuffer from crippling anxiery. If I do travel, I’ll suffer from crippling anxiety. But at least I’ll have been somewhere. Nothing really seems to make a difference, but staying off the drink helps contain everything. I have had some drinks recently and that has coincided with this slump, so I’ll blame that.

Due to a ticketing cock-up and an annual cycling event, I’m planning to jump on a Eurostar and travel Europe – wish me luck! This gives me a whole week to spend in Pembrokeshire and the coast of Wales. The weather is looking great, and I’ve really reduced the amound of kit and clothes I’m taking. This is my holiday season. Now all I have to do is work out what to do. I already know that, find someone who wants to pay me, and after that find something I want to do – but don’t get me started on that!

*Message to self* Relax a little and leave your problems behind you for a while.

A few days later…….

It’s June 30th and I’m on a farm campsite near Pembroke. There’s lots of hills to ride up!