It’s Saturday 24th August and I’ve barely left the flat since I’ve returned.

My notes are all typed up. But from a quick glance it looks worse written than The Davinci code or 50 Shades of Grey – not that I’ve read either. It’s a ‘l’ and ‘we’ and more ‘I’. The important thing is that it’s all written down for another day. From now on, my game has to improve. Using a notepad to scribble thoughts down changed the flow and the content. The experiment may work out in the long run. It certainly brough back some memories.

My place avoided any incidents when I was away. Everything switched back on, no leaks, and no sign of any trouble outside. Having said that, I can see why I left. I was trying to re-energize, and hopefully become more productive. But I can see my faults in the way I leave things. I’ve tried to tidy up, but it’s never done. The last week has been spent doing something, but it’s not always easy to see.

Thinking about it, I renovated the Hogan tent. It needs to be used with a ground sheet now. I cleaned and scrubed the inside. That means all of the waterproof coating has been removed. On the plus side, everything won’t be covered in green from now on. It’s had a full waterproofing, and the seems have been rubbed donw and re-sealed with silicone gell. With a bit of luck, there’ll be a few more adventures left in the old tent. The MII had the waterproof treatment as well. And if it wasn’t a Bank Holiday I would have been in the Lake District now.

My blog is up to date. That is something I needed to do. The decision now is if I go back and improve them. The answer to that is no. Pictures can be added, but I always wanted to capture how I was feeling, based on how and what I’ve written. This captures a moment and has the ability to freak me out when I read them back. Then I can see how I’ve processed everthing with better entries like this one. As I’ve written before, I might even write something at least half funny again. This isn’t one of my better ones. The idea is that it’s pointing in the right direction again. And I’m out of the house\flat\appartment.

Catching up with 20-30 years of letting things slip isn’t easy. Time is short and habits become, well habits. Being untidy, or wasting time is built in and fighting it is a struggle. There’s a good chance that I’m catching up on 48 years of bad habits. This is not good. It would be great to be rich or in a possition of power and be unaware of what I am. Knowing makes it worse. And by knowing what I am, I just mean not Mr Popular, Mr gets loads of things done, Mr has paid for his house and doesn’t need to worry about the future, and Mr done nothing worthwhile with his life. If I was just a little less tired in my past life, Mr drank less, My less edgy and grumpy. If I was just a little bit better at sport, I’d take that. My times last year were as good as 13 years ago, but that’s not good enough. Now that’s said, let’s move on.

The thing I liked most about being away was being outside. What did I do when I came back? That’s right, not go outside. I’ve seen everything here. That’s why I need a new view. It still doesn’t explain it though. I’ll have think about that. For the moment, it’s time to move. Something is bugging me, and has been for ages – I need to sort out it’s and its – this is well overdue.

I could have looked that up ages ago. I have I feeling I was taught wrongly, or more likely not taught at all. It’s been worth while.

Going out was fine today. I spent some money on things I may or may have done without. New sunglasses and a new mini Trangia will come in usefull at some point. Taking the chance to get away in to the hills is getting me a little excited. I need plans and opportunities to take advantage of. Everything is ready to go when I want to go. Monday could be a good day. It’s a bank holiday, but I’m guessing everyone will be going in the other direction. I need to do this.

A good thing is that my Flow is working again. The support I’ve had has been great. The battery needed more charge time than I thought, but the main thing is that it had dust in there. The solution was to use a vacuum cleaner on it. I’m so happy, because I thought I’d mis-treated it.

That’s enough for now.