I’ve been busy

I’ve wanted to build a website for a long time.And a couple of weeks ago I decided to give it a go. You can see it here: http://pauldevlin.me, or you could if the service was up and running. My new site not being robust wasn’t on my list of things I wanted and definitely not what I expected. Some of the site is a vanity project with the Wordsofnonsense copied over in its entirity. But there was something useful that I wanted to work. My CV is on line now and when I posted the link to a recruiter they told me that the site was inacessible. It’s been down since 1300 and it’s still down at 2207.

I like what I’ve made, but in reality it’s schoolboy stuff. My content is my own and that’s what makes it worthwhile. Having some type of record of what I’ve been doing for the last nine months/48 years almost gives a sense of achievement. But there are gaps, many gaps of nothing, or nothing useful. After thinking that I’d lost my box of medals, I found them the other day. They go all the way back to 1992, but strangely I don’t have the warm feeling they used to give me. My feelings are was it worth it.

There’s a strong urge in me to have a drink. I don’t have any in the flat, so I can’t have one. The old bottle of gin is still there, but I’ll never drink that. For some reason, I won’t drink gin. Whiskey on the other hand wouldn’t have lasted very long at all. Beer would have been good, but once 2130 passes it feels a bit strange buying booze from a supermarket. Then, when it’s 2200 I can tough it out. But the desire for something is strong and yet, I know that drink won’t satisfy it, even if it’s caused by not having a drink for a while. My start date was 20th July and sometimes I can’t work out why I’m putting myself through this.

Now is the time to stop my vanity projects and do things that need doing. I don’t have any regrets about having such a long time off. Maybe the month or two before going away and the month after coming back could have been more productive. And there’s something I should have done. But I was never going to do that.

I think, tomorrow, it’s time for a long Brexit article. The Supreme Court are giving there judgement about the legality of the Prorogation at 1030 tomorrow. The judgement could have a massive effect in deciding what kind of country we live in.