This feels odd

There’s no doubt about it. I definitely drifted when I returned from my travels. Let’s pretend that it’s all a blank and for get about it. The point of writing was so that I didn’t forget about it, but I’m here again now and that’s what’s important.

I need a job now. I really, really need a job, but just for the money. Things will be a little bit tight soon, but I’m fine until the new year. My feeling is that everything will be sorted soon.. This is the result of some effort I put in over the last few weeks and the good habits of looking after myself.

Something more profound happened. I bought a SAD lamp this week and there has been an almost instant effect. Suddenly, I have energy. My place is tidy and I’m not lying on the couch this weekend. Perhaps, all I needed all these days was a SAD lamp and admit that I have seasonal affective disorder. Of course, this may be a passing phase and this will pass, but I don’t think so. Something definitely has happened. This is so good that I’ve decided to have a bottle of wine this evening – against my better judgement!

Many years ago, when I was still living in a houseshare I bought a Kodak 66 MkIII camera from a jumble sale in Henley some time around 2002. I kept the camera and never used it. The main reason is that I never made any effort and thought that finding film would be a problem. None of this was a problem and I’m happy to say that the camera works!

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I wasted two films at the start through not knowing what I was doing and frustration when I was ill a couple of weeks ago and I’m pleased that I pushed on. When the films were sent to the developer I had no idea what to expect, so I went for the cheapest option and didn’t pay extra for the scanning option. These are the scans from my printer and I think that they are great. Digital photography sucks!

That’s me for today. See you tomorrow!