There’s something in the air – again.

It’s Friday and 80% of the possible normal working week has passed. So far, I’ve achieved nothing. I don’t think I have, but some day in the future I could look back and see that this week was significant in my success, but it doesn’t feel that way. I’m going to give myself the day off anyway. My place is a mess and it needs a clean. It needs a big tidy up. But for the moment, I’m enjoying mid-morning with coffee and trying to chill out before a big effort. My motivation is the sunshine that looks set for the day and I can’t move on until I manage to complete one blog this week.

My reason for having a clean is to work out what has gone wrong with the air in my flat. This week, cavity wall insulation had been retro-fitted in to my block. This should have been done when the place was built, and I wish it had. Dear reader – you’ll know that I bang on about air quality and it’s important to me. Sometimes, it would be best if I couldn’t see the measurement, but I can. And when the cavity insulation was being fitted, my air quality became very poor and it wasn’t obvious unless you can measure it. On the other hand, my place might need a good clean. I’ve even gone to the effort to replace my Blueair 221 filter, which was getting on for being a year overdue, and I still have a problem.

So that’s it. I need to clean and forget about employment for the moment. I don’t like doing this because it makes me face all of my failings and can make me miserable to say the least. The good thing is that the days are getting longer and the sun is out. Evening bike rides are great at this time of year, which is what I’ll be doing later.

Everything is a mess, though. I feel anxious just looking at the mess around me. This is all of my failings and I can’t ignore what I see. I feel exhausted thinking about it. MOVE! DO SOMETHING. YOU’LL FEEL BETTER. I won’t though. Everything I do, fails. But it needs to be done. It won’t make me happy, but I need to show some pride and self-respect. I’m doing it now – honest! Wish me luck whilst I stare in to the abyss.