Always hungry!

Everything feels wrong. I tried going for a bike ride and ran out of gas as soon as I went outside. All I could do was visit my new bird watching spot and see what I could see. This is the place that I spotted a green woodpecker and the place I return to to see I can spot another one.

I was lucky enough to see another one today. That’s what happens when I leave my camera at home. What I did have was binoculars and had a good look before I flew off. There was a wren as well, and I watched it sing its heart out.

Today was another cold day. It’s not freezing out, but it is colder than it should be, and that feels very wrong. It might be that I’m not feeling as good as I thought I was. I feel so flat and there’s not much I can do about it. I’m low on energy and that’s why I went out for a big bag of oven chips, fishcakes, and a £3.99 bottle of pinot noir. The food has all been eaten and I’m still hungry. The wine on the other hand will keep me company for the rest of the evening.

My energy problem is becoming a problem. More food might be what I need. More warm sunshine might help me more. Vitamin D might have been a problem in the past, but I’m eating these pills like Smarties – 1000 International Units – which isn’t a huge amount, but ten times more than the Government advice. None of this is new, but I rhink it became worse last year.

I’m bored with this. Current events are grinding me down and I don’t have much money. The future looks grim, the weather forecast doesn’t look great, and I’m out of ideas. The chances are that I won’t be able to cycle far tomorrow, so I’ll probably cycle half a mile to sit on a log and look for more green woodpeckers.

I wish things were different, but they aren’t. Typing anything else is a waste of energy.