I’ve been away so long, I don’t know where to start. If only I’d written some of this down!

My account has been locked out. I’m not sure if that’s the case or if I just forgot how to log on and gave up. It could be one or the other. Either way, I didn’t have the urge or the energy to find out how to log back in and start typing away. There’s a good chance that being away from the keyboard was a good thing too. For one, I was running out of topics to go on about and secondly, I think some of life was way too bad to talk about. But that’s in the past. Let’s talk about how great things are now! O-oh!

I’m in the beer garden of the Nag’s on a lovely day near the end of May for an after work pint(s) after a strange day in the office. This German lager is very welcome, but it’s going down too quickly. That’s because it’s my first mid-week drink since before 22nd Feb 2022 when I said I’d never drink again. And now, I’m falling in to familiar cycle of doing well, knowing what will happen, denying it will happen this time, and watching it happen. All of which is happening because, like many others, I like a drink.

The think with not drinking is that it’s all or nothing. I don’t mean nothing or loads, but just one leads to another in a couple of days, because it’s “just a beer”. Not that that’s a problem. Cost on the other hand is a real issue. Drinking in pubs is really expensive and I don’t have the money. And what if I have a smoke because I’ve had a beer. Or half a bottle of wine because I’ve had a beer? Then lose a whole Saturday from drink? All of which is the reason why I stopped this time.

I think I’m being a bit harsh on myself, but on the other side, money was a real problem amongst my other problems at the back end of last year. As soon as I unpack what happened, I’m sure I’ll talk about it here. But I am being harsh on myself. Some things have turned around. For example, my weight peaked at 84KG and I’m weighing in around 79KG now. I even managed to start jogging again, which is almost a miracle from where I’ve been in the last few years, and I think I’m really happy about it.

The next couple of months may be a bit difficult. On the personal side I think things might be turning around. Work on the other hand, makes me feel like I haven’t achieved anything, and we’re almost half-way through the year.

Here is the place to keep an eye on things. I’ll record my running efforts and bring back the return of my 100 press(push)-ups!

I’m going to start daily blogs again. Watch this space for more…………………………