I’ll start doing something in a minute.

Briefly, things were picking up. The sun was shining, there was warmth on the skin for the first time in months, and the air was good. Today, on the other hand is worrse. The sky is grey, it feels cool, and the air pollution is back. In short, I’m not going out today. At least I have the choice. There’s nothing making me go outside. All I can do is have another mug of strong coffee and hope that I wake up and spring in to action, which rarely happens, but I do it anyway.

Only yesterday, I worked out how to get in my zone and I’ve almost forgotten about it already. I’ve just started brewing another pot and then I’ll put the headphones on and focus – I promise! If I can create my mental bubble things could work out well, and I need to try. There’s a possible job I need to research. Once I do that I can think about something else and try and get on with life.

What’s happened here is that the outside doesn’t bother me anymore. I’m not going out, and I don’t need to regret that I can’t go out. I didn’t have anything to do if I did, so I won’t worry about it. I’ve switched my air filters on and I’m ready to go. So let’s pour that coffee and focus.

I’ve moved to my small room, the air is good, and I’m listening to Mozart Piano Concerto 21. This took me about ten minutes and I have to try and stay here for one hour. I don’t care about the news, what people think about the news, what people think about what the news may be, or what they wanted the news to be. All I need to care about is my news. But let me know if the tanks are rolling up the road. Other than that, I don’t care. Too much time has been spent giving up. And too much time has been spent spreading myself too thin doing other things and letting myself become distracted.

At this moment, I hardly have a care in the world. I’m almost focused, my head feels free again, the music sounds good, and my aches and pains can be ignored. Time to look a little futher in to that job and reply back to the agency.